not dumb

"I'm through with making excuses for you and why you don't talk to me now. I know very well that you're not busy, I know you don't have football at 10 o' clock at night, I know your mother did not have a heart attack. I'm just done trying and caring. I just have to realize that you used me. Every girl has that moment when she's nothing but a mere toy, and honey, you were mine. You made me into a stupid girl for a night, are you happy? I hope not. I just hope you know that next time I won't be so dumb, and you won't be so lucky. I'm smarter now, I'm getting over you and getting on with my life like I should have done months ago."

YOU

"You think you know who your true friends are? 


Wait till high school and see who is there for you when your ex-boyfriend spreads rumors about you.


Think you’ll never do drugs?

Wait till it’s right in front of you and all your “friends” are doing it.


Think you’re tough?

Wait till you say the wrong thing to the wrong person. See who backs down first. 


Think you’re smart?

Wait till you have an English paper, science project, history test, 
and a 10-minute oral due tomorrow cause you were absent for one day. 


Think you’re cool?

Wait till you’re the only one who doesn’t make the sports team.

See how cool you are then.


You think you’re popular?

Wait till your parents can’t afford the new jeans everyone has.


Think you’ll never fall in love?

Wait till a guy looks deeply into your eyes and says he loves you.


Think you’ll never get your heart broken?


Wait till the same guy who said he loved you is holding another girl behind your back.


Think you won’t have sex?

Wait till the guy you think you love says it will make you closer.


Think “nothing’s going to happen to you”? 


Yeah, wait till you’re sitting in a jail cell, wondering how you got caught.


Think you’re always gonna be an individual? 


Well wait till one morning when you look in the mirror 

and you look like everyone else.?"

Just Because..

because of him she trusts no one but herself

because of him she cant commit to relationships

because of him shes scared

because of him she cries herself to sleep

because of him she has nightmares

because of him she sleeps next to her mommy 

because of him shes scared from the dark

because of him she has those scars all over her

because of him she is what she is

because of him she depends on herself

because of him she cant let go 

because of him she wishes she cudve been wiser

because of him she is trying to forgive,,,

She..

"She's not like that now.

She knows better.

She knows now that people lie, and

promises can be broken as quick

as they're made.

She understands that she might never be loved, and too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out and grab them.

She knows that you can't change or help time, so every now and then it

will just run out.

You can't always expect people to care, and even when you're best friends stab you in the front, don't think for one minute that they didn't already aim for your back. They missed for a reason.

She has found out too soon that in this life, you're your own best friend.

Everyone will be broken at one point in their life and more often than not, it's gonna hurt like hell. But you can't stop it. Some things are meant to be and all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. You don't know what it is, an when

it happens it will hit you like a ton of bricks.

At some point, when you have experienced everything you

can, the words life and risk won't mean anything to you anymore. But don't try to change that. Stuff like that is meant to happen. Over time,certain things no longer have an affect on you and that happens cause

it's the way it's supposed to be."

To Let Go ..

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I can’t control another.

To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it’s to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for, but to care about.

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To let go is not to be protective, it’s to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to criticize, or regulate anyone, but to try to become what I dream I can do.

To let go is to fear less, and to love more.

To let go is to realize  you need to move on

To let go is having the courage of putting your past behind...